Brain Full, Body Tired: Taking Stock of My Now

I’m struggling a lot this week. Sure, my physical health is lagging. Unfortunately, my mental health is taking a beating too.

I’m tired. I’m tired of pulling up the big girl panties, putting on my helmet, and marching through each day.

I spend a lot of time simply feeling like I need a long nap and a couple cookies for emotional support. It is exhausting to keep pushing ahead.

Finding Joy Where I can.

Crocheting a project that holds its own project yarn while being crocheted.

I have leaned hard into my self-care moments. I’m struggling enough to walk and manage even the simplest chores. Shoot, I don’t need to struggle as hard to smile, right?

Crocheting makes me smile. The biggest laugh I had yesterday was the moment I realized my bag can hold the yarn for the project while I keep working on it. That was a good laugh that, after repeated to others, made me realize that might be an “Angela” sense of humor and not universally amusing to other yarnisans. 😅

It actually just means the bag is almost done. I’m really excited to finish up my backpack-style messenger bag! I plan to make this my new purse. It is so cute despite having no design and just winging it! I also love the yarn I am using.

With the loss of JoAnn’s, I’ve taken to Michaels. I love their rewards program because I use my free rewards to buy more yarn! 🤣 The yarn I am using here is a polyester and acrylic blend. So, it is soft and sturdy. I’m happy!

Keeping Up With the Kitty, Hello Kitty.

I collect all things Hello Kitty. I have since I was a teenager. It is my thing, and it is enjoyable. I love hunting for something I want or need designed with Hello Kitty. This time, I needed a new car air freshener.

It didn’t take much digging. I ended up with this set and I am happy.

A series of meme-inspired car air fresheners.

While digging, I found these and just had to get them for my better half. Seriously, they’re funny as heck! I felt this suited his personality, and he did find them funny.

I often feel like the dog with coffee in a room on fire. It took a lot not to snag just that one for myself. 😂

My daughter got one with the knife-wielding duck (different from above). I bought another loved one a set of Stitch, as that is her favorite character.

The Sketchual Healing Continues.

I do not have a photo for this one. My apologies. Nothing really new to show. However, I have the complete book of line art coming today with the last LePen 10 pack I need for my art. That will give me 50 total pens!

I should be good after that, am I right?!

I’m excited to try different patterns and draw new combinations! I want to use colors as accent lines along what I draw. I find that enjoyable.

I’m simply throwing myself into the fun and enjoying myself while I do it. It’s not about being perfect, it’s about feeling peace. I have enough weighing on me. Drawing a perfect line is the least of my worries.

Physically Exhausted, and Mentally Overwhelmed.

I am tired. Too much effort tends to drain me. A couple of chores will knock me on my butt. Going into a store requires a 3-day recovery.

My weeks are full of responsibilities that my energy level does not match. I’m constantly picking between what I need to do most, and adjusting based on the level of stitches I have left in my energy bank.

Who knew that you could get so tired that you’re just tired of being tired. Nap fatigue. A need for a boost. Fewer headaches and more productivity.

This morning I was asked: When are they going to figure this out? You can’t just sit there (at your computer) and die!

Hrm, yeah. Not my goal anyway. I assume I would be bed-bound before that happened.

Considering how thick my brain fog has been getting? I cannot say for certain that anything will ever get done. I’m struggling to advocate for myself.

You try seeing the forest through the trees when your brain is only 40% capacity.

Let’s Burrito This Post…

As a final wrap, I’d like to note that I do keep pushing ahead. I’m learning more about respecting my energy levels and prioritizing goals. I may take a break from Stitched Business Solutions until I have a little more energy to tap each day.

It will suck if I choose to stop making guides for a time. However, sometimes I barely manage a basic update (like this).

Rather than disappointment when I cannot keep up, I’d rather take a rest and come back as my energy regenerates.

I’m not sure yet. What am I sure about? That you help me keep pushing ahead. Just writing these things out and knowing someone is listening somewhere. I even hope there is someone who feels inspired to keep fighting their battles.

If you’re here fighting or know someone else battling, please take a moment to like and share this post. Spread my words and help others feel a little less isolated.

What part of your health journey are you facing right now? Where do your struggles lie? Don’t stand alone, just share a few words in the comments below.

Thank you, everyone. Have a great day. I hope you find a beautiful reason to smile.

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