May 19th

As my pain has been quite unbearable, I am grateful for my partner. He has been amazing! He keeps helping me where he can, and he does so graciously.

I try to do things where I can. It isn’t always easy, but I do my best. In turn, he picks up the slack where I struggle.

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May 20th

It seems my disability application is reaching the end of the first round. I was denied for SSI, but SSDI is still in the final review process.

I suspect another denial, but at least I will know before I turn 40.

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Yesterday was not a good day. I have been struggling to find gratitude in my life. I am still trying, but it is hard.

As for the dual posting, I forgot to update my gratitude yesterday. I postponed writing it because I was busy. I couldn’t think of anything, and I was preoccupied.

I wanted to publish them both as quickly as possible today. That is one weight off my shoulders.