Sometimes a person might get flowers because their partner is trying to apologize. I get a dozen roses for absolutely no reason at all!
Yesterday, my lovely boyfriend had to run into the store for a couple of things before he came home from work. When he got home, though? He surprised me with a dozen roses.
Apparently, he saw them and thought they looked really nice. He thought of me & decided to grab them to make me smile.
No Reason Day should be a national holiday!
It really touched my heart. He is really good at showing affection randomly. After 7 years with him, I cannot help but recognize the good. So many don’t see that 7 years into their relationship.
He makes me feel special quite regularly, even after all this time.
I appreciate that so much.
Lots of art & not much else.
The girly, sappy stuff aside, I’ve been feeling iffy. My emotions aren’t bad, but I also feel this underlying sadness.
Does that make sense to anyone besides me?
I’ve been coping through art. The above is a finished 8″ x 10″, with a message I needed.
I am also working on something that I may enter into the art contest. If picked, I would be featured at The Toledo Museum of Art in Ohio. They are picking 30 applicants.
I think it is worth a try. If selected, I would be expected to appear for the opening of the exhibit. I am sure I would have to appear for the promotional things, too.
It isn’t guaranteed, but they are taking submissions from disabled women. Their goal is to elevate the artistic voice of women who struggle with varying disabilities. I fit the description, but I don’t feel like my art is worthy.
I am still going to try, though.
That isn’t the piece I wish to submit, but I am trying a tangle design with a tulip that I may use if it works out as I have visualized.
I love tangles because they express my personality & thinking process without using words, but the words I choose express what I need most.
It tells you what I need while also telling a story of how I get there.
I know abstract art only speaks to the artist, not so much to the viewer. I get that. However, that is the meaning behind each line. It speaks to my disabilities, my mental health, and my needs as a person who is trying to heal.
I have the tools to create details that are not often seen in scratch art. I can make fine lines & the larger lines, creating a beautiful combination that tells my story.
As it stands, I think it is risky to consider using scratch art rather than hand-drawn. However, they did not set medium requirements.
I’m worried about how I will feel if I’m not selected. I’m sensitive to perceived rejection.
I am writing this from my brand new computer!
I’ve been having issues with the temporary laptop overheating. I couldn’t even play a game on it without the video card overheating and crashing my computer.
The laptop was always temporary anyway. It was a loaner. We were hoping to wait until I was in my permanent office. Waiting wasn’t realistic with the laptop, though.
I spent my morning setting up my computer for functionality.
Okay, it was actually to make it cooperate with my OCPD.
It is still what I managed to accomplish as my morning mindfulness moment, lol. I’m probably going to work on something artsy later. Besides this long-winded post about nothing of interest to you.
I’m watching old episodes of Las Vegas. That is about as interesting as I get today.
Does anyone remember the show?! I was 18 or 19 when it appeared on TV.
I think that was enough blabbering for one post. If you reached this point, thank you for caring.
I know I wasn’t funny or witty.
I’m just a girl struggling with her emotions and needed an outlet.
Have a beautiful day, everyone. I appreciate you!
Angela J Shupe 
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