I hope beyond hope that you read my title while singing the theme song to “Welcome Back, Kotter.”
If not, well, you’re anywhere from my age on down. Honestly, aired before I was born, I only knew of the show because my mom recommended it.
It was a worthy watch. You should too!
I mean, how can you resist a clearly not-teenage Travolta telling us, “Up your nose with a rubber hose”?
Hitting the brakes.
In reality, I needed an outlet once again. I’m overwhelmed all the time. I am tired all the time. I feel restless without school or any charity work.
(looking at you, emotional dysregulation)
I won my disability case finally, which is so wonderful! I really needed this win. I still run my charitable endeavor, more like a hobby at this point. I am not really doing anything to enact any real change in the world because my mental and physical capacity is shot.
It is why I say I am overwhelmed and tired. Little things are overwhelming. Tiny amounts of stress exacerbate my health issues & exhaust me.
I am living life between long naps at this point.
Art is life.
I am still quite active in art & on social media. I’m trying to advocate without emotionally & physically shutting down. It is a task where my bandwidth falls short.
I have made a handful of pieces for Letters of Care, too! I’ve been enjoying the process of creating to gift out into the world. Sometimes people just need to be seen. A little happy mail can be the pick-me-up that someone needs.
I am here for that!
I even recently stitched a few stitches on a crochet project. It felt good to create a little fiber art again, too.
Ultimately, I found myself allowed to slow down, and I didn’t know what to do with myself. I have been sick and pushing too hard for too long. When my brain found out I am allowed to rest, well, it hit the brakes hard.
Despite the hard stop on my capacity, I’m here and hope to continue showing up. As I am. In all my imperfect glory.
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